What If…?

Self-confidence—does everyone lack confidence and if they do lack confidence – why? It seems it is common, at least to the average man (or woman.)  Why do I become frightened at the thought of something big and new? I hesitate to put myself out there, to be vulnerable. What will happen if I do? What will happen if I get rejected? I know what I would do – quit, give up, retreat back into my turtle shell.

What would happen if I didn’t give up. If I tried again and again to succeed? What if I got a break? What then? What if I became a sought after commodity? What if I made thousands of dollars? Millions of dollars? I am 75, how can that ever happen for me? I think I am over the age of being sought after. What if I am just telling myself that and it isn’t true? What if…..?